What I learned from stepping into my creative purpose
This week I officially launched Saavi Productions – YAY! This journey has been wild! I was pushed to the edge of my creativity – the edge of my comfort zone – and wanted to hold on so dearly the habits and beliefs that were familiar and felt safe.
I came to realize that bringing our deepest desires to life is possible! And when I say possible – I mean truly able to make sh*t happen even when we feel like we don’t have ALL the information, ALL the expertise we think we should have, and ALL the perfectly perfect things aligned for us. Perfection is a myth – we may never feel perfect, and I have come to accept that. Well, I am honestly still working through getting over this pressure I impose on myself to be perfect – but I have come out on other side of holding myself back from pursuing my creative purpose.
I can easily recall that past 10 years of my life, thinking that I was preparing myself for the “someday I’ll have the freedom, the time, and the resources to FINALLY do this.” I do not regret my journey, I evolved into the exact person I needed to be now in order to accomplish this. However, after almost 2 decades of this idea being a nudge in the back of my mind, and after accomplishing several other feats a long the way, I still never felt ready to take action on this. I didn’t allow myself to be vulnerable enough to just get started. I’d ask myself, what are people going to think of me? I felt like it would not make sense to pivot after a 10-year career in accounting. Logically thinking – it’s not a good idea to throw away all those years spent on mastering a skill. I learned to realize that I am not throwing it away. Everything I’ve learned up until now has prepared me for this moment. The skills I acquired, the pressures with deadlines (hi there, tax season), and the resourcefulness that evolves when you just have to figure sh*t out when things don’t go as planned.
I must say that by announcing this new venture, I am not giving up on what I currently do for a living. I have clients that I am responsible for and a team to continue to build and train. I do well in my “day job” and that is how I get to eat! I plan to continue serving business owners because I know they need people that understand and genuinely care about their business and financial objectives. What I am doing is exploring the potential I have with the vision I want to bring to life through Saavi Productions.
Thinking about the next 12 months of this journey makes me shake. Both of excitement and nervousness. I want to show you that the possibility of creating the life you want is attainable for you, too. It’s not easy, and there are hard boundaries we need to set along the way. So, let me take the first couple of steps forward and I hope to encourage you to start taking those first steps as you learn from my journey.
-Saavi
